Hi y'all. Its been a long day. I have been sick on the couch for most of this dreary Sunday, or at least it felt like a dreary Sunday to me. I hope you fared better than I did.
Anyway, last night as I lay beside my Lil boy as he tried to go to sleep he was in a talking mood. I love those but please don't let him know, I will never get him to sleep again :). He was talking about his Papaw(my daddy). He was talking about how he loved him so much and how he was glad that he could spend time with him. He said to me mom, I miss my Nana. I took a deep breath and I said I miss her too. He said he missed the way he could hug her and that her hugs were the best. He is right her hugs had a healing power all their own. I long to feel her arms tight around me. He said to me , mom I miss her kisses when I get hurt and I miss talking to her when I am mad or hurt. I thought to myself, me too. I searched deep inside trying to know what to say to comfort him and maybe myself as well. And from somewhere, I could hear her voice in my head and she whispered I am still here, I am in your heart, and even though you cant see me, you cant touch me, you can feel me, you can feel my love. So I told him, she is still with us, and if we listen close enough that we can hear her whisper I love you in our ear every night before we drift off to sleep. That she has not left us, she is watching over us and that she is waiting for us. And he said mom, I love her too and you know what, we are lucky Nana is our Guardian Angel. I leaned over and whispered in his ear, yes baby we are...
I lay there hoping to hear her voice again and thought of how much I needed her to hug me right now. But in my heart I know that momma is in the arms of Jesus, and I believe that as I lay down last night and drifted off to dream, she whispered in my ear, I love you.
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