Finding it hard to breathe.

Ok so its just after midnight and I can't breathe. I feel the walls starting to close in on me. Loneliness consumes the night. I am alone. I don't do well alone. I question so much when I have time on my hands. My friend who usually keeps me sane and far from these silly thoughts is with his family tonight celebrating his daughters Birthday. How wonderful! We all need to celebrate each day. I have so many things to be thankful for why do I allow the things that hurt me engulf my every thought? I am such a fool for allowing such misery into my life. I allow it! I am a dork. That is what my friend reminds me of each day ;oP.

I am trying so hard to move through each day with positivity, and for a pessimist that is extremely difficult. I have been told to breathe and believe, believe that God is handling everything. That if I just put my faith in him and believe he WILL carry me through. I may not get the answers I want but God will answer my prayers. I need a car that uses less gas, I want a Mustang, that would be my dream car, but God may allow for me to have a Fusion, (they are easier on gas anyway) but he will have given me a car that is easier on gas than the SUV I drive today. He may not give me my every want, but he supplies my every need. If I just breathe and believe that he hears my prayers and he sees this place, this dark place that I have found myself in then maybe just maybe he will carry me from the darkness back into the light and help me to see the new day, a better day he has chosen for me.

Better Days

Robbie Seay Band

First of all thanks for listening to our song
We hope this finds you driving in your car or where ever you are
breathe out and breath again know that life is hard,
but its worth breathing, listen to me now for love, oh love,
It's waiting for you just to say

Chorus:

here come better days
here come better days
better days, and a better place I know.

Secondly I'm all messed up so royally
I stumbled my way here,
but wait, oh wait grace has found me
shaken up my soul,
grace will follow wherever you will go,
listen to me now grace, oh grace,
is calling for you just to say

here come better days
here come better days,
better days, and a better place I know.

Green grass and I'm laying in the sunlight of you,
the wind is moving through the trees ushering you,
and the better days you bring, the better places found,
feasting at your table I'm overwhelmed,
and I lift my glass drink to love never gave up,
clouds pass fading into memories gone,
and all I know for life is life and love and peace,
what else could there be?

here come better days,
oh here come better days,
better days, and a better place I know