Normal

Its been a year today since I last saw my momma, alive. There was a really bad storm and the power was out. Austin was afraid so he wanted to go down Papaw and Nana's. So like always we did. Mom was folding clothes on the couch, dad was trying to light the coil oil lamp and my brother and his girlfriend were off in the back of the house. Jerica was feeding Kyley in the den. Normal. Mom was smoking a cigarette, and I as always was telling her she needed to quit, she was sick and it was taking days off her life. If I had only known. She assured me she wasn't smoking as much and she was doing better. She had been complaining with a stomach ache and had called the doctor, but they had failed to return her call. She had some problems and required a specialist to deal with her stomach issues. She said she may need to go to the ER. I was hesitant. She seemed OK. Was in pain but that was no more than normal. We sat talking for a while. At one point while in the darkness she reached over and tapped dad on the leg, said " babe, wont you put on some wrestling or something, its too quiet in here." Typical mom, caught up in everything she forgot there was no power. She hadn't been sleeping and she was dozing off while talking so I begged her to please go lie down and try to rest try to sleep. Finally she agreed. We got her into bed. My brother for some reason went in to check on her, she was half in and out of the bed. He didn't want to wake her so I went to get her back in the bed. I raised her legs and scooted her back onto her pillow, pulled the covers up and she opened her eyes and looked at me not quite awake, I think I kissed her head and said I love you momma, please rest. I tucked her in and I left. Normal. The storm passed the power was restored. We went home. I talked to her late that night on the phone. One more I love you momma, that's all I was given, one more I love you sissy. The 12th of Feb 2009, there was no more normal. Mom was gone. Mom had found peace. Mom had been given what she had lived her life for. Mom had inherited heaven. And normal forever changed.


Sissys Song
Alan Jackson

Why did she have to go
So young I just don't know why
Things happen half the time
Without reason without rhyme
Lovely, sweet young woman
Daughter, wife and mother
Makes no sense to me
I just have to believe

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me


Loved ones she left behind
Just trying to survive
And understand the why
Feeling so lost inside
Anger shot straight at God
Then asking for His love
Empty with disbelief
Just hoping that maybe

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me

It's hard to say goodbye
Her picture in my mind
Will always be of times I'll cherish
And I won't cry 'cause

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me
Don't worry 'bout me
Don`t worry 'bout me