It seems that lately most of the things I write are sad. Maybe its because of my mood, my losses, my hurt. And the hurt seems to define me. I don't know if I am ok with that. I have always been a people person, John informed me just today that I have closed myself off, he is worried. And I got to thinking, what is wrong with me? I have always been the shy backwards type but this has become crazy. So I made a decision not to give up.
John has been beside me, picked me up off the floor when I begged God to just take me too, he has held my hand as I cried myself to sleep, he has listened to my ranting when it made no sense. He is good to me. I am so happy that we have been able to move past our short comings and be stronger than we have ever been. I really don't know why I chose to write this blog, maybe just to say that I am lucky. Through all the grief, I am still lucky, lucky to have love, to have hope, to have him. I hope you are lucky enough to have this same love someday, its nowhere near perfect, but its wonderful.
John has been beside me, picked me up off the floor when I begged God to just take me too, he has held my hand as I cried myself to sleep, he has listened to my ranting when it made no sense. He is good to me. I am so happy that we have been able to move past our short comings and be stronger than we have ever been. I really don't know why I chose to write this blog, maybe just to say that I am lucky. Through all the grief, I am still lucky, lucky to have love, to have hope, to have him. I hope you are lucky enough to have this same love someday, its nowhere near perfect, but its wonderful.
1 comment:
Hold on to what you have. Life is short you know that all to well. Keep your head up & keep remembering how lucky you are.
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